Sunday, October 02, 2005
Emotions and Blessings........................
Its Sunday night. I am finally writing from home. Not the library. I was very sick yesturday.
I am feeling very alone today. I went to church this morning, and that was great as usual.
I miss Bob. I miss Molly, Brock and Mike, and MY family. I am so far away. I know I shouldn't be lonely. I love it here. I have such great in-laws, and great friends at work. They threw me a very fun birthday party Friday.
But I still cry alot. I am very emotional. I have always been emotional. So what? A lot of things bring me to tears....A sad movie, missing my Brock, missing loved ones that have gone to heaven, being alone at night, my husband far away, I feel sad for some of the children who have parents in jail, or a messed up family. They hurt and they are so young. I had a good childhood. I feel guilty.
I think about how my life went stupid back 9 years ago, and all the people I hurt. I know God forgives, but do people really forgive us? I wish people would love me unconditionally no matter what. Think about that word. UNCONDITIONALLY .
Love me with no strings, forgive me when I do wrong, help me do better, pray for me to be a better friend and wife. Cherish me for me, just being me. I use to think I was really a cool person. I want to be loved UNCONDITIONALLY. I want to feel needed, and cherished. I am not trying to sound like poor, pitiful Gail. I am just expressing my feeling today. I love life, I love where I live. I love my families, and friends. I love that I feel better today. I am very Blessed!!!
Bob, if you read this, know I love you, know I am your lonely other half, know you don't need to prove anything to me or anyone. Chill. Life is so very precious, and waaaaaay too short. We could lose our life in an instant. I know that all too well. Cherish 'OUR' life now. I love you.
Got real good news about Mitch. He walked for the first time since July4th. Praise God. I ask for all our friends to please keep praying for him. He has a long way to go. His latest update said he wants to get better so he can get back to working and taking care of his family. He is such a Godly man. He sees how God answers prayers. But he knew that already.
Well, I'm tired and better get to sleep. My poor husband is working the night shift at the power plants. 7 pm to 7am. He is beat in the morning. I'm prayin hon.
Blessing to you all....................................Gail
I am feeling very alone today. I went to church this morning, and that was great as usual.
I miss Bob. I miss Molly, Brock and Mike, and MY family. I am so far away. I know I shouldn't be lonely. I love it here. I have such great in-laws, and great friends at work. They threw me a very fun birthday party Friday.
But I still cry alot. I am very emotional. I have always been emotional. So what? A lot of things bring me to tears....A sad movie, missing my Brock, missing loved ones that have gone to heaven, being alone at night, my husband far away, I feel sad for some of the children who have parents in jail, or a messed up family. They hurt and they are so young. I had a good childhood. I feel guilty.
I think about how my life went stupid back 9 years ago, and all the people I hurt. I know God forgives, but do people really forgive us? I wish people would love me unconditionally no matter what. Think about that word. UNCONDITIONALLY .
Love me with no strings, forgive me when I do wrong, help me do better, pray for me to be a better friend and wife. Cherish me for me, just being me. I use to think I was really a cool person. I want to be loved UNCONDITIONALLY. I want to feel needed, and cherished. I am not trying to sound like poor, pitiful Gail. I am just expressing my feeling today. I love life, I love where I live. I love my families, and friends. I love that I feel better today. I am very Blessed!!!
Bob, if you read this, know I love you, know I am your lonely other half, know you don't need to prove anything to me or anyone. Chill. Life is so very precious, and waaaaaay too short. We could lose our life in an instant. I know that all too well. Cherish 'OUR' life now. I love you.
Got real good news about Mitch. He walked for the first time since July4th. Praise God. I ask for all our friends to please keep praying for him. He has a long way to go. His latest update said he wants to get better so he can get back to working and taking care of his family. He is such a Godly man. He sees how God answers prayers. But he knew that already.
Well, I'm tired and better get to sleep. My poor husband is working the night shift at the power plants. 7 pm to 7am. He is beat in the morning. I'm prayin hon.
Blessing to you all....................................Gail
